I had a hard time as a teenager, as many of us do, but overall my parents have been amazingly supportive throughout my life. I have been a good deal of trouble at certain points and, even though if I were a parent, I think I would have made differen choices, they have done everything they can to help me. It is killing me to see and hear them suffering this way. My father wants to be Superman, and thinks her can save my mom somehow. He won't talk to anyone, and only told me that much becaquse I got all up in his grill for 2 hours the last time I was in OR. Aside from the fear and loss and anger, he has a whole other fucking mess to address. He is a very religious Catholic and attends Church every week. He knows that at some point he will most likely have to help my mom commit suicide but the Church doctrine forbides this even in circumstances like the one at hand. Dad will not talk to a priest or any other churchly type and will not talk to anyone else either. What do I do? I am not pretending that I have the answers, but I do know that stuffing all of this emotion will cause him to have more TIAs (transient ischemic attacks or mini strokes) and will kill him too.
There was a point, less than 10 years ago, when I felt that I didn't really know waht death was. There was almost noone whom I was was close to who had died, or even had big health problems. Now, it seems like everyone does. I feel so helpless. Is this what growing up is really like?